I have been reading a wonderful book by Maeve Haran, The Lady and the Poet.
It’s about John Donne, who I must admit I have a bit of a lit nerd crush on, and his wife, Ann More.
Re-reading many of my favorite poems by this wonderful poet has me thinking about love, life, and eternity.
“Twice or thrice had I lov’d thee,Before I knew thy face or name;”
– Air and Angels, John Donne
So here I am, thinking on words I could say.
I am, much to my own chagrin, a deeply emotional person. I feel things deeply, and I like to think on things much. I love words, poetry, romance, and intimate connection with others.
And I wish to be with someone who does also.
I want to have a partner with whom I can stare into the darkness of life and not be bothered because we also stare into the deepness of one another and see a like soul reflected back.
I want romance.
I don’t mean flowers, fancy dates, or cliched words of flattery.
I want someone who makes me feel like they are my world, and I am theirs.
I want to be with someone who will feel deeply with me. Who isn’t afraid of all the parts of love and intimacy.
Donne also said, “No man is an island…”
I feel like one. I feel cast off, let alone to drift away at sea.
I feel undesired. Unloved. Singular.